Hi!
I am from Delhi,India.
First of all I want to tell you that You are a big fool that you thought of committing suicide. It is not an option to get out of your problems. Think of your parents who afforded to bring you at this stage.
Secondly If you want to go abroad, then this may not help you. If you are qualified enough then, Go and Find some suitable job for you in your city. Going abroad is also not a good option if you can manage your requirements here in India.
Don't pamper yourself. It's called life and you only have to struggle to be able to succeed.
NEVER LOSE HOPE.
Best Wishes