That´s what I meant. I have constantly 10 active refs who are active for more than 1 month. I upgraded Premium for 7 of them and. I publicly do it on YouTube in a video. IF I quit it to Upgrade the last 3-4 refs then it will be said bad about me in other forums. That im NOT legit.
Yes I´m kind. That´s why I appreciate my VERY ACTIVE refs.
I learned it from my experience, that in order to achieve something you need and want to give something first.
As for example. We need to work a whole month in our Real Life job in order to get the loan. (Ok some get weekly or twice a month depends of the country/job etc.)
It´s my own character, it´s already from childhood. I got blood trauma at birth in my right-side brain. So from the scar what´s left in the brain I have a disfunctional left hand and leg a little. And as I became 2 years I started to get Epilepsy seisures. the Grand-Mal ones. Weekly sometimes twice a week.
Although I struggled through life with my birth disability, Epilepsy and seizures and bullying at school, low self esteem was my best friend. I always said, that it could be worse.
As you see from my Username, yes I´m now at age of 26 soon 27. I managed to control my seizures at will . I trained my mind so, that the seizure disappears if I focus or concentrate it away.. 10 years ago If I would write/speak about Epilepsy, I already would have some symptoms appearing. Now I know that It´s not Epilepsy who Is the Owner, BUT me and the so called Epi is just a "visitor". or how I laugh about it now my buddy
Now I learned how to control it, I helped my classmate many times (who had also Epilepsy). Since I learned when and what to do IF something like that occurres. The more kÍ helped, the kinder I got, the more kinder I get, more friends appeared, the more friends liked me my self esteem rise.
So only then, when I accepted and loved myself as I am. My live went up, meet a beutiful Girlfriend and after being 5 years together we are marrying this year.
Sorry I don´t know why I wrote this. But I had pain in my chest.
What I wanted to say with my pain that. I knew In my life, and experienced that through kindness and generosity I achieved many things.
Sincerely,
Eddie1988.